Time to try again

Well I had my period.
The minute I came out of the bathroom, I hugged Jerry and cried.
Another month of no pregnancy.
So I pulled myself together and told myself to just keep trying.
I'll be taking my temperature daily and when the time is right, taking the OPKs.
According to the doctors, we should be fine.
So I am just sad it hasn't happened yet. I mean really, it's been over 2 years without any protection.
But I can't give up, I can't not think about it. But I am not supposed to stress either. Which I try not to.
I am doing a 30/30 challenge in July and I have an elliptical machine again. Trying to eat better too. Cutting out carbs and sugars is hard.
Not sure if anyone reads this... But please pray for me and Jerry and a future little one.

Day 32

Still no period as of 2pm.
Going to take a test today.
*crossing fingers*
❤❤❤

Day 29.

Today would be the day I am supposed to start my period and start all over. Here's hoping it doesn't come and I get a positive. :) :) :)

Birthday

Today is my birthday. I really didn't want to be this old and trying for a baby. The original plan was to be done before now. But life happened. Now I am with the love of my life. And we are trying to get healthy for having a baby. I NEED to lose weight, and I don't know how without starving myself. I am just so tired of trying without seeing lasting results.
I drink almost nothing but water. I and trying to eat better. And walking more.
Just nothing is helping. I need help.
:(

What the....

So today is cycle day 19.
I took my temp and it was high. But I figured it was from the fact I had wine in Thursday night. Then I went to the restroom, and took an ovulation test, just to see. And BOOM,  positive!!!
I don't know ehats going on, but okay... Lets try!!!

Bad day

Having a bad day. Just beating myself up over everything.
My back hurts, so I can't do a bunch around the house, so it looks like a wreck.
Thank goodness the chiropractor is helping with all that. But I was bad yesterday and didn't ice my back after my appointment. I paid dearly for it later. This is also preventing me from doing certain exercises that I want.
I am so mad at myself for being fat. I want to lose weight. I need to lose weight. I am in tears from not losing weight. I am trying all that I know, short of liposuction. And this weight gain, I think has made me stop ovulating regularly. So again beating myself up.
Just having a pity party day. I'll be fine. But right now, I just want to cry and starve myself.

Doctor Appointment

Yesterday, I went to see my OB/GYN.  I have had concerns about things and why I am not getting pregnant. I asked about getting everything checked out again. Mainly, yesterday was day 15 of the cycle, and my temperture hadn't risen, and my OPT (ovulation prediction test) hadn't popped positive yet. So now my doctor is concerned I am not ovulating properly, so she mentioned Clomid.

Today, I am going to get an ultrasound so they can check and see if there is anything concerning there. We also talked about getting a dye test done called a HSG

(Hysterosalpingogram) test, to see if there are any blockages or anything concerning there as well. I will update later with what happened with the ultrasound.

One thing at a time. 

Keto Diet

I have done this type of diet before. And it really worked. Then I plateaued, then there was pizza. I really need to get into again. But... Pizza!!! Maybe I can do it on the days Jerry works, and cheat on his off days. That might work.
All I know is I am overweight and want to lose it. Not for beauty or vain purposes, but for health purposes. So many things could benefit from losing the weight!!!

Symptoms

I hate feeling certain symptoms. Like the tightness in my uterus area. Too many period symptoms also feel like pregnancy symptoms. But I know I am not pregnant. I just had my period. Today is day 10 of the cycle. Tomorrow, I will take an ovulation predictor test. I forgot to take my temperature this morning. So I'll just have to do it tomorrow. Good thing, I feel less stressed lately.