Bad day

Having a bad day. Just beating myself up over everything.
My back hurts, so I can't do a bunch around the house, so it looks like a wreck.
Thank goodness the chiropractor is helping with all that. But I was bad yesterday and didn't ice my back after my appointment. I paid dearly for it later. This is also preventing me from doing certain exercises that I want.
I am so mad at myself for being fat. I want to lose weight. I need to lose weight. I am in tears from not losing weight. I am trying all that I know, short of liposuction. And this weight gain, I think has made me stop ovulating regularly. So again beating myself up.
Just having a pity party day. I'll be fine. But right now, I just want to cry and starve myself.